People I've brushed past in my life seem to have taken more from me than I've gained. Its no wonder I married a man like my husband, I feel like sincerity and true kindness don't exist anymore.
Let me start out by stating that I am not perfect. (Im very far from it) I distance myself from people and I've grown to realize, specially recently, I have a hard time associating with others.
My outlook on humanity has darkened dramatically in the last few weeks. I've seen people do and say things that astonish me. Groups of friends who have nothing better than to fake smiles to each other, leaving facebook comments with smiley faces typed at the end of each white lie. I admit, its a little too easy for me to seperate myself from people.
When I see poor judgment, selfish behavior or outright disrespect, I pull myself away from that person or group. Im coming to realize that the only way to maintain friendships today is to just shrug those things off. Maybe one day I'll learn to do that.
I know there are good people out there but I haven't been privelaged enough to form friendships with them. I lucked out with my husband. It seems the truly good ones are the ones suffering, the ones who aren't living in ignorance- far from bliss.
What I'd really like to do is just leave Vegas.
Cut ties and just let my hair down.
Start a new life somewhere
where there's no bitterness behind my smile.
Where I can meet new wonderful people and
give my trust full-heartedly.
One day.
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